Can people change?
I think that people can, and do, change.
Can people change?
I think that people can, and do, change.
What possession could you not live without?
I could not live without blankets!
What was the last major accomplishment you had?
The last major accomplishment I had was when I completed training for my volunteer lab position.
It took me a while to complete my training because I was only able to volunteer for a couple of hours, one day a week. The first thing that I had to do was read our laboratory safety manuals, which easily took about 3 weeks for me to finish. After reading the safety protocols, I was able to begin balance training. Luckily, training to use the balance only took one week.
The last step in the training process had been dubbed “pipette boot camp” by other students volunteering to research in the same lab. When I first started, every time pipette boot camp came up, all of the other students in the lab would talk about how long it took them. The other students made pipette boot camp sound next to impossible, which really motivated me to have as few attempts as possible (I was really wanting to do well in order to impress my research mentor). So, I did my first protein assay and got an R2 coefficient of 0.91 or so, and was pleasantly surprised to learn that most people don’t obtain an R2 that high on their first try. The same day, I did two more protein assays, each with an R2 of 0.99 (which is what my mentor was looking for).
After submitting two R2 values of 0.99 to my mentor, she informed me that you had to get 0.99 three times in a row on two different days. So, I went home, came back to the laboratory one week later, attempted the protein assay one last time and obtained an R2 value of 0.99. This is definitely my last major accomplishment because I was able to complete my laboratory training in order to get involved in more hands on activities, as well as completing pipette boot camp in only four attempts.
What is your best memory of last year?
The best memory I have from 2015 is the day my mom got married. I think it is my most fond memory from this year because I felt close to my mom again after a long period of feeling really distant from her.
Before the wedding ceremony, I wasn’t really sure how I felt about my mom getting married. Her fiance and I had a falling out and things were pretty awkward between the three of us. But, I knew that me being there meant a lot to my mom and I really wanted to make sure that her day was as wonderful as she had hoped. We spent the day getting our hair and nails done, preparing drinks for the night, and doing other last minute things to make sure that everything was ready for the wedding while everyone else worked on setting up the venue. When we arrived, the venue was done and we waited for the guests to arrive. The ceremony itself lasted about 3 minutes, and the rest of the night was a huge party.
My favorite part of their wedding day was learning the story of the first interaction between my mom and her husband. I had never heard this story before, but after hearing it I understood immediately why my mom had to marry this man. The two of them met online and she had posted on her profile that she was looking for her Gilbert Blythe. For those of you who don’t know, Gilbert Blythe is a character from Anne of Green Gables and the likelihood of someone on a dating website understanding that reference is slim (Not that I know, I’ve never actually used a dating website). But, I guess he private messaged her and made a snarky comment about Gilbert, and I’m sure at that moment she knew he was the one for her.
At the end of the night, after a couple of drinks, I had the pleasure of giving a wedding toast to my mom and her husband. I remember being really nervous, but I think I gave a nice speech that meant a lot to my mom and her husband. It went something like this “I remember being really little, asking my mom what kinds of things she wanted in a guy, and thinking that she was going to have a really hard time finding someone who met all of these requirements. But, tonight I heard the story of how these two met and now I can say that my mom has found someone pretty close to perfect. (And then I addressed her husband), You better keep making my mom happy, and I’m glad to say that my family is growing! Love you both!”
Are you content?
No, and I’m not sure that I will ever be content. I always want to be better and I have the tendency to push myself to what feels like unattainable standards.
What are you most grateful for?
I am grateful for the life that I have.
I’m really lucky to have a roof over my head, clothes for every type of occasion, food to eat, good friends, a loving family, sweet kittens, a reliable job, and the opportunity to go to school and make my life anything that I want it to be.
What is your number one goal for this year?
My number one goal for this year is to feel like myself again.
I’m not sure what exactly happened, but a couple of months ago I really started feeling not like myself. It was probably caused by a lot of things. I was feeling really anxious about finances because I wasn’t able to work as much as I used to because of my school schedule. I was taking a lot of difficult classes as well, and I wasn’t doing as well in them as I wanted to be doing. I felt really defeated and stupid and like I wasn’t any good at the one thing that I really need to be good at. I started to feel really isolated and lonely because I felt like I had no one to talk to who could relate to me or understand what I was going through. My relationship became very strained, emotionally draining, and confusing. So much of my time the last couple of months has been spent fighting and feeling depressed about how things have changed between us and if we can ever be the same. I feel like if things don’t get better I will always blame myself. I feel like I lost myself last year, and I’d really like to spend this year finding myself.
Luckily, my school schedule worked out a little better so that I will be able to work enough so I feel comfortable. I am even considering getting a second job or, depending on the situation, just changing jobs. We will see what happens there. The classes I’m taking this semester are probably going to be difficult, but I’m really excited for them and think that they will be super interesting. I’m hoping that will keep me motivated and I will start succeeding at the level that I want to for myself. I’m really hoping that if I start doing better at one thing, or a couple of things, it’ll just be a domino effect and I will find myself again.
I came across a 365 questions post on my Pinterest a couple of weeks ago and thought that it sounded like an interesting idea. Luckily, it’s the start of a new year and is the perfect time to take on a challenge like this one! I found the challenge here, in case anyone is reading this and decides that they’re interested in trying too, and to give credit where credit is due!
That being said, I’m excited to start this challenge and here are the questions for the month of January!
For Christmas this year, my mom got me an adult coloring book and it is honestly one of the cutest gifts I have ever gotten! Each page has a different, elaborate theme centered around a cat and there are about 30 pages or so! So, I’ve decided to take pictures of my progress as I color and then post them all when I finish each picture!
Also, because I’m not trying to take credit for art that isn’t mine (except for coloring it in!), I used a Creative Haven Creative Cats Coloring Book by Marjorie Sarnat!
So, here is Cat 1! Also, in future posts, I want to include a blank version of each picture, but I had already started coloring when I thought of this idea, so sorry.